It was a mystic morning with the heavy fog. I was taking Stella for a walk around 4AM and then at 8:30AM. 8:30AM was a much better time ;) and I could see the fishing boats leaving the dock in the heavy fog. It was a great time to write a mystery novel...for somebody. I don't write fiction but I would love to have the gift doing just that as the surroundings this morning was perfect for some mystery. Got back home after the walk around Alert Bay downtown and T-L and I went to the big house and then the museum. The ravens were hanging around and making amazing noises and Stella was left in the car which is not ideal.
Went for an early dinner and I left Stella in the car again but my gut feeling told me that it will not be a good idea to leave her in the car again. She escaped the little brat!! Two tourists found her at the Seine Boat Inn where we are staying and she found our room looking for me. Annoying that she gets so frantic when I leave but to be honest I only had her for two months and so many things are new and this is the first time being away from home for this long. So it happens. And I am still learning her triggers etc. and have to train her in not being anxious when I leave because I am always coming back.
I do not like when I am dealing with inner conflict. It happens when I am not making a decision on something I want to solve or do and it only creates confusion and irritation. Not making a decision is a huge time wasting activity, I will be preoccupied with negative thoughts and feeling stuck. When I have one foot in one path and the other foot in a total different direction I create imbalance. I am not going anywhere and I may just fall down!
This happens when I am afraid to choose the wrong thing and not able to make up my mind on what to do next. But I have to remember that if I continue sitting in inner conflict with myself it is a choice I am making. It is very frustrating not making a decision because there are so many things I am procrastinating about and maybe self-sabotage will kick in. I have to remind myself to take action as there is nothing keeping me away from moving forward, I just have to be resourceful and ask for help if I can't figure out the next move.
I walk down the street, I meet people, they smile, makes me feel good inside. At times I did not have the time to smile back and I felt really bad. Even though you don't always get a smile back remember that you probably made their day with a smile, it showed that you cared enough of the person to smile. Grateful for the smiles I receive today. And smiling makes me feel better :)
I am in contemplation mode so I am contemplating lol... Life becomes simple when you take action steps. We all know this. Life becomes more simple when we listen to the whispers in life, some people understand this. Life is beautiful when we live our lives on our terms and follow the path that makes us happy. My biggest joy is going for a walk after work, to shed all that energy and throw it out to the ocean so new energy can enter. I do it with intention. Walk=joy=love=peace=harmony=destiny=freedom. Plus the secret sauce is to listen to your desires, listen to what is being said to you by others, sometimes other people have messages for you without knowing. That is part of the whispers...
Being present and paying attention when you work or doing art are the key strengths to be successful. If you are not being present when you are meeting a client you will not get the connection that is required to be helpful for their highest good.
If you are not present and paying attention when you are painting you will not be happy with the result. Winging it does not work and you only will waste your time and art supplies. The same goes with most things. Let's say that you are going for a date tonight, you kind of not really into it, you take the date lightly and you do not put in an effort in the way you dress. Well, hello! Because you bring an energy of not really caring you will not get a second date and the first impression is non-forgiving most of the times. Do your best, put some energy into it and remember what you put in is what you get out.
When I came to Canada over 20 years ago I took Fine Arts for a year where I developed and explored my artistic side. Most of my art work was extremely solid, like there wasn't much room for being expressive and everything was heavy with solid colours. I remember that I was very jealous/envious of a student who had a more relaxed and fluid personality and artistic style at the time.
When I started fluid acrylics I liked how it was uncontrolled in a very controlling way to get the results I wanted. It is a freer way of expressing myself, I did not have to be so exact and paint within the lines so to speak. I still like my fluid acrylics being somewhat solid and you have to understand the density of colours, consistencies when mixing and how to layer the colours to get the best results. Anybody can do it, and I recommend that you try but don't be discouraged if you don't get the results you want in the first few tries, painting is like everything, it requires time/practice to develop a new skill.
Life is full of shoulds, I should do this and that or not do anything. Even not making a decision you just made one.....by not making one. Get it :P. And by making decisions, you open windows for more joy and happiness.
Shoulds can create worry and anxiety but making decisions can be helpful on a gloomy Monday morning, or any morning. Planning and having goals are exciting and when I don't have goals or anything planned I have a tendency to become stagnant and less joyful. Making progress is important and that is why we like goals or choosing a core desired feeling on how we want to feel on a daily basis. Today I like to feel grounded and magical. I can find magic in nature and looking over the lake will put me in a state of magic asap, there is something unlimited with water and the endlessness about the ocean. It never ends! And that is where I feel unlimited and full of potential. Water makes us happy.
Many times in my life I have been looking for an authority figure to give me the ok to do things (boss, parent etc). It is time to do and take a leap of faith and be ok with "you go" or "no go". Either way you have to give yourself permission to be you and go after the things you want in life, not what the mainstream wants you to do. Release the breaks and go for it <3.
"Once the torch that we carry to illuminate the way to our destiny is lit, we must surround ourselves not by people who will judge us negatively and smother our flame, but by people who will walk beside us and help us carry our torch when our arms become tired... " ~ Debi Hebel. I will always, always walk beside my friends and be encouraging and at the same time give gentle feedback if there is a blind spot that has to be addressed. Giving and receiving feedback on blind spots can shorten the path to the destiny/purpose and who does not want a shortcut once and a while.
I haven't had a good break from work this summer, thought I would take a major vacation in the fall during the rainy season. However, I can feel that my body and soul is needing a change in scenary. I am feeling bored, same old, and lackluster. Maybe it is the full moon that is making me feel humdrum, maybe it is good to feel bored because life is truly an event of ups and downs, maybe I don't have anything to look forward to. There....I am sitting in it, the impatient, bored, restless legs feeling of wanting an ice-cream. And then the sun will rise again tomorrow. Who knows how I will feel tomorrow but I do know my BFF will pick me up to go to the spa at Tigh-Na-Mara. Until then I will sit in this negative space.
My name is Annica Johansson and I am a Career and Talent Coach. I am writing about personal development, daily musings, spirituality and depicting mother nature's amazing beauty.